When your heart hurts.

When you've invested everything into someone, you are putting your whole identity, being and spirit into that person. And as easily as you gave it to them, it is broken down. When you want it to work out but the other person cannot or does not want to commit. When you feel like you messed it up and there is no going back to how it was. When you don't think you'll ever move on, and your heart is forever theirs. When you know you can't make their heart feel something it doesn't want to. When you envisioned your entire life with that person, and then it all crumbles. When all you want is for them to be happy, but you cannot be a part of their happiness. When you would give up anything to have them back. When you would change or do whatever it takes to have them. When you want them to want you, but it never will be.

That's when the heart, head, mind, spirit and body hurts. When your life seems to just be meaningless and your past becomes a tomb and your future seems dull and colorless.

When you wish you were in a nightmare and maybe some day you'll wake up and everything will be how you once dreamt it to be. When you stay up crying until your heart is drained and your veins no longer flow with passion. When the wound doesn't seem to heal with time the way you thought it would. When the pain is the most consistent thing in your life.

That's when the heart, head, mind, spirit and body hurts. When your life seems like a collection of photographs and you've run out of film.

When your soul refuses to light up. When your spirit no longer beams. When your face is an image of a worn and exhausted candle. When the muscles that used to make you move ache and refuse to live.

That's when your heart hurts.

When guilt and remorse infuses into every breath you take, for you could have done something different that would have meant you were still with the one who owns your heart. When you wish you could just have one more second feeling the breath of that person. When you feel like you never told them you loved them enough times. When you regret not hugging them enough. When you realize you didn't take care of them like they did for you.

That's when your heart hurts. When your life seems to spiral into darkness and hope is replaced by sadness.

To you, the bearer of this broken and hurt heart.
The world always seemed to make more sense when you were in it. The gloomiest days would vanish with just a glimpse of your smile. You brought out the best in me, and made me feel like I could mean something to somebody. That I could be loved, and am lovable. To you who made me want to help out everyone around me so that they could feel a little more whole, like how you made me feel. To you who made everybody forget their problems, be it in vain. To you who gave me hope, reassurance and support.

To you, the bearer of this broken and hurt heart.
All I can ever wish is that you be happy. Feel as whole and uplifted as you made me feel. To love the whole world like I love you. To serve humanity in the beautiful ways you served me. To feel useful, not used. To smile without thinking. To laugh until your stomach hurts. To have high hopes and aspirations. To live a productive and reflective life. To be loved.
To be you, the most you that you can be. Nobody else can.

For you, I am. And that is okay, no matter how much it may make this heart hurt.